I am posting this Care Bear, better known as Good Luck Bear, because tomorrow I am going in to do my tilt table test. A tilt table test is where they hook me up to a heart monitor and I.V. while on a table that I'm strapped into. Then they tilt me to a 70 degree angle for anywhere from 30-45 minutes or longer and see what my body does and how I react. All this time they are hoping that I faint so that they can get the results they need to find out what is causing me to faint so much.

I don't like hospitals to begin with, so you can only imagine how I am feeling about going tomorrow to get this test done. But I am hoping to come out of this with a better understanding as to what I can do to prevent myself from fainting.

Wish me luck, because as told by my cardiologist. The worst case scenario if they get the results they want and it's really bad, they will have to put a pace maker in me. I am to young for all this to be going on. I mean seriously I'm not even 30 yet and I am falling apart.

Happy Valensary to me and Vaughn tomorrow

Okay so it's a made up word. But it works for people that are having their anniversary on the same day as Valentine's day. One year ago tomorrow Vaughn and I tied the knot at the downtown court house with the best witnesses ever(our boys).

So to all that are like myself and Vaughn and are celebrating an anniversary tomorrow as well I say to you

HAPPY VALENSARY!

Maybe it's time...

My 1 year anniversary is on the 14th. i have been with Vaughn for a little over 9 years. things are still rocky in areas. I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe it's time to get some counseling.

NO WAY

Okay so I haven't posted in a while partly because I have been busy trying to figure out what's going on with my hear. The doctor's still don't really know what's going on. but have some other tests they want to do.

Tired of being a Ginnie pig. But now to top it all off I have developed a lovely little cold bug inside me. DANG IT! i can't afford to be sick right now. I literally was out of work for 10 days and just came back on Monday.

SUCK IT UP ALECIA! YOU CAN DO THIS!

Waiting for the results

Okay so in the past week and some change I have fainted 3 times. Last Monday the 11th was the first time, Saturday i went in for chest pain which I found out that the E.M.T.'s just diagnosed as a Panic Attack and said" It's not a big deal, she's just freaking out about something." Then Tuesday this week I passed out again.

When the doctor finally realized that this is the third time in 8 days he admitted me and the next morning( today) i did a stress test, an echo, basically an ultrasound of the heart, and an EEG to test the brain waves.

I failed the stress test which is what the cardiologist wanted to see. She was saying that she thinks what is causing this is when my heart rate and blood pressure go up my air valves are not opening up enough o let the blood and air flow threw and my brain doesn't get enough oxygen causing me to faint.

Making a long story short I came home today because I did not feel like sleeping at the E.R. another night while waiting for the results of all my tests to come back. So with any luck at all tomorrow I will have the results and FINALLY get some answers other than " I don't know what's going on with you."

Lord please help the doctors find results so that I can gt on with my life and get this fixed if it needs to be. Amen

What is going on?

Two days ago I was getting ready to go to work when all the sudden I start feeling really dizzy I think nothing of it, since I've had a headache for 9 days straight, and continue getting ready for work. As I make my way to the kitchen I start getting even more dizzy. But before I can sit down I apparently collapse. The last thing I remember was going to get a drink of water and that was around 10:20am or so. Apparently I called Vaughn and told him at about 11:00am that I had fallen again and he needs to come get me. He rushes home only to find me trying to get up and looking dazed and confused. He helps me to the couch and gets my slippers

" Time to go to the E.R." he says

Not really knowing what's going on he helps me to the car and were off. Thinking it would be faster and not take all day he takes me to the Urgent care on Silverbell. However once I'm in and the doctor finds out that I fainted she immediately calls for an ambulance to take me to Northwest.

To make a long story short, after several blood tests, a UA, and a Cat scan of the brain. They do not know what caused me yet again to black out. I say again because this is now the 2nd time in less than a year that this has happened.

Needless to say I called work to let them know what was going on and they were not to thrilled about it. Sorry I think I would rather stay home and make sure that if I do fall someone will be there to catch me, as opposed to no one. I have a feeling that work is going to ask me to leave since my health has been an issue lately causing a lot of missed days from work. With any luck at all I will get this all straightened out at my doctors visit today and find out if I am able to go back to work any time soon.

A light at the end of the tunnel

Last year brought some hard times for my husband and I. In March we signed adoption papers for our two beautiful children to not live with us and for us to loose all legal rights of being their parents. That was the hardest thing we have EVER had to do. But we knew that we were doing a selfless thing , and that our children would be in a much better place.

In April we were told by our case manager that we would continue to have visits with our kids for another 6 months. much to our surprise on the next visit we were told that we only had one visit left and then everything would be done, and it would be up to the new parents as to when we get to see our kids.

More hard times and things happened through out the year, like not being able to see our youngest on his 4th birthday.

But then our world turned around when we met with some Elders and started talking to them about the LDS church and what it really meant to be a Mormon.

I am happy to say that on May 16th, and May 30th. Me and my husband were baptized into the Church of Jesus Christ of Later Day Saints.

Since then our life has changed for the better, we have had many blessings and made friends with such wonderful people.

I hope that this year brings many more blessings, and friends. And I hope that we will be bale to help those that are in need, like the many that have helped us.