Feel like my dreams are being flushed down the drain

Okay so as you may or may not know I want to go back to school to become a Medical Assistant. However due to some pretty harsh times this last year, I dropped all my classes. Now I have a hold on my account that totals 1,241.10 . Hold on though there's a little bit of light at the end of the tunnel.

My job is willing to pay the 241.10, as well as paying all the expenses it will take to do the Medical Assisting program. But ( and trust me it's a big one) I have to come up with the rest of the money soon, because classes start in January and I can't register until this is paid off.


I am NOT posting this to ask for help. I will figure this out on my own. I am just posting this to vent my frustration of being somewhat close to my dream but having it ripped out of my hands because of the loss of my kids and signing adoption papers depressed the heck out of me, and made it hard to even want to get out of bed. Sorry but it just doesn't seem fair that when I appealed this and explained my circumstances( with a lot of proof) they denied the appeal.

All I can do know is pray that Heavenly Father will help me find a way out of this mess. So that my dreams can finally come true, and I can feel like I have made something of myself.